Archive of ‘pain of lyme’ category

Dream a Little Dream of Hope

I knew as soon as I posted about my icky abdomen year that things would start to look up. You know that feeling? When you are struggling with a task and then open your mouth to ask for a hand, and then all of a sudden you solve it? Beautiful, isn’t it? This is a new year, a clean slate, a season of healing. And I hope it is beginning for all of you.

There have been a lot of positive changes for my tummy, thanks to a lot of new factors:

1. Magnesium oxide. Pretty sure this is code for ‘nature’s-feel-good happy-calming’ drug. Seriously. Magnesium is amazing. This kind of magnesium particularly targets the digestive tract to fight the babesia hanging out there.

2. Aloe Vera Gel. Does it taste like Shrek snot? Absolutely. Does it help your tummy? You bet. Pinch your nose, eat something yummy afterwards and trust me it will be worth it. Coats your stomach, which is great for when you have to take all sorts of nasty pills which hurt your stomach lining (or have an ulcer, like me).

3. Nucca chiropractic. Essentially, it’s the realigning of the atlas (near the top of spine in your neck), which if out of alignment, makes the ‘signals’ coming down from your not as clear to the body. A nerve problem could have been causing my Gut Palsy, so hope it continues to help! After the first treatment, I felt like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders, and the energy/chi/life force/energy pathways on my left side, which had been blocked for so long, were balanced (yay!).

4. Soup diet. Just for a few days. I don’t like to think it helped, but who knows. Mum’s have this pesky habit of being right ;).

Tasting is believing.

So all told, my tummy (and the body connected to it!) is feeling much better. Still a bit uncomfy, but it’s feeling well enough to eat cookies :). I made the best cookies in the whole world from “Real Sustenance” blog. They are made entirely from nut/seed flour, and a sugar-free, soy-free, and wheat/gluten-free anddddd vegan. I know. Sounds like it might be free of yumminess too, but let me assure you that is not so. I used walnut flour, which I made myself in a food processor, soy-free margarine (but will use less next time. walnuts are oily!), coconut palm sugar, almond milk, and Enjoy Life Allergen-Free chocolate chips. Flat, crispy little golden-brown cookies is the result. Perfection! Can’t wait to bake some more :D.

I wanted to share with you a collage I’ve just finished creating. It went together so quickly. Sometimes I have a very strong vision when I begin a collage, and I find all the images I want quickly, and they all fit together in a beautiful way. And sometimes I can’t find the images or words that I’d like, and have to go about re-envisioning my collage. I wanted to create a rainbow, dream-inspired collage, as a gift to Help Fill A Dream Foundation for all their amazing support and love over the past 4 years. I hope it will inspire whoever comes to their office to open their hearts, and to dream of hope. <3 br="br">

Mixed Media Collage: magazines, calendars, 1888 Encyclopedia Britanica

To Fall and Get Up

I fell. 
Just now I thought I could walk to the bathroom myself, less than 6 yards away, versus get up, get into the chair and go. And then repeated in reverse. I got about a few steps and I got that hot feeling. Like you’re embarrassed and you feel the heat creeping up your neck into your cheeks. The world looks like somebody stuck it in the blender and slowly swirled it up. I’m a small boat on a rough ocean, swaying, swaying, swaying into blackness. Until, I become aware that my body is against something rough, something very solid and I find myself even with the horizon. It takes a few heart beats until the pain kicks in.
I am in such intense pain that the slightest brush of a hand or a gentle hug makes me faint from agony. You can imagine how a fall from 5’7 and 3/4 would feel.
But you move on.
Or in my case you forget. Its so hard to hold a grudge these days, let me tell you…

But that’s how you do it. You just keep picking yourself up off of the floor and moving along again. That’s the only way to move is to move forward.

%d bloggers like this: